.::What a day?::.

~*i am feeling all screwed up*~
~*i am feeling stupid*~
~*i realised and i know*~

when it comes to today, i absolutely has got nothing much to say besides complain... i certainly hope tomorrow will be a much better day...

first thing in the morning... i sort of argued with my mother cause i cant find my shorts... HELLO...! early in the morning... and that spoils everything...

no chocolate today to keep me happy... no one to keep me happy also...

i seriously dont know what to do next... i hope but i know that and i realise that i am really prepared...

then comes to school and i saw this idiot guy whom i shall not talk about.. all the past week's bad experiednces are so bad that i chose not to talk to him in the end... so i didnt and i really forgot what i am thinking when i was sitting at the table...

the next thing that i know is the assembly at the sports gallery... it was so so long... and i dont like it... then come pe then come that extra chemistry lesson...

what a great test huh... 6/20 and there is only one pitiful soul in class passing it with a mere mark of 10/20... what is this? fine... so getting a 6 is something great...

there is this guy named Isaac... darn screamish... screaming away at all his careless mistakes... but true enough... he could have topped it if not for all those stupid mistakes...

then i called someone and i think he sounded more dead than before.. or is it i havee the mindset that he is sad thats why he sounded sad? maybe he is not? i hope he is not...

then got someone lucky... sets test got 10/10?? without studying?? ok lor... fine lor... dont sound nice when you realise you just failed your chemistry so badly...

then come the general paper lesson which happens to be a presentation for the Continual Assessment... which is CA lah... ya.. it is so cool right? i went to class... since my class is a small one cause i am having bad grades for my english so i was a bit shocked by the small turn out...

nevermind it is ok... but coming to the fact that only me and jacky turned up in our group?? that is so omg... so we rushed to work and i think produced something considered ok for us... cause jeremy and ting ting were not in school today when they were the only ones who know about what was reallygoing on...

so come the preesentation and i think i made quite alot of stupid comment... sorry... that guy out there in some other group is just not making sense... or is it i am just biased?? hmm... whatever...

then come after school.. i decide to find auntie... on the way... rarr... i am so so tired and i tried to sleep and my mother called me... i know she is trying to tell me what happened to my grandmother... i am convinced that she feel abit guilty towards her.. but i am seriously not in the mood... so i just somehow snap at her and shut her up...

then when i reached my auntie house.. bombarded by them lor... rarr... maybe i should have just shut up and not say anything... but i think my time in my auntie house is one of the happiest time today besides having contact with my handphone... then there is this quarrel between the kids and that affects the adults... my auntieis quite old and sometimes you dont know what old people think... so yah... i went out with my auntie's daughters and their kids without auntie...

we went west mall.. hoon is a bad back ache so she cant carry her son yong kee who keeps saying 'da da da...' then i will have to do the job and that is nothing nice.. then ping have to take turns with me to carry him... then her daughter rui han, who is only a few months older than yongkee, sleeps in yongkee's 500 dollars baby trolley... or whatever that you call that... ruihan likes to go 'mum mum...' she likes to eat...

this 2 little darlings... or rather yongkee, is really a darling to me... so clever and thanks to him, he threw my handphone on the ground 3 times? rarr.. nevermind.. he still rocks... he likes to look at the lights... random... why did i touch on that?

anyway... ya.. went home... hoon drove me home... being the maid for almost the whole afternoon.. but enjoyed their company...

then come home...some clever people tell me i can be online at 10...then someone come along and say she need to use... and so push back.. until... around 10.30?

i tried to work before that.. but i am just so so tired that i went to took a nap... haix.. by the time i am online... rarr.. dont want to talk about that...

i am thinking of sleeping soon.. i am real tired...

i realise that prayers do works... so more prayers.. i am a free thinker but turning to God at times do calm my soul...

if you ask me to find a song to describe my feelings now, i cannot give you ONE song.. cause i seriously dont knwo what i am feeling now...

i am going to touch my tarots later... although i know i should not be doing that...

anyway.. ya.. i am prepared for whatever that comes along and i mean... i THINK i am prepared... i hope but i dont know... i hate exams...!

no more plaza singapura tomorrow... change to some week day... this coming week...

why all of a sudden i felt like i am being abandoned? my teachers changed one after another... and after getting so used to how things are now, there will be a change again... rarr... or is it something else?

i dont like coming home now actually... there is no peace.. there is this freaking silence at home but you know that a storm is brewing and you never know when it will explode... hope it would not be sunday... please.. of all days not sunday..

i hate sunday nights... will things be better this sunday night? i hope...

anyone interested in going to the book fair? hmm... see how lah...

~*i forgot something that i want to say*~
~*but i do remember feeling all screwed up and stupid*~
~*but i will smile*~
~*cause i hope to see that on your face*~